I am growing every day

I miss mommy. She is now in US. I gave her lots of hugs and kisses before she left. 

Mommy is thinking about becoming a morning person. It is a big deal for her. Because she is such a night owl. But.. I wake up every day very early. She wants to see me, not just during the weekends. Also it is very healthy habit I think. So let's give it a try. 

Honestly, perhaps, mommy is a very lonely person. She wants to stay close to me, rose, daddy, yeye and nainai all the time. Even these days she came back from office every day very late, and do not even get to see me during the weekdays. She still felt so happy when she knew there was a place, we were there safe and happy. That makes her day. Sometime she buys too much bakery items though ;P  I do not understand why? Perhaps because of all these years she was away from home. Away from people she trust and love? 

I think she needs some new challenges now:

1. set up a goal

2. get up early. sleep early

She was so unhappy when she got back to Seattle. She started crying even. Well, it is what it is. Mommy, let's find ways to enjoy. If you do not want to see friends, dont see friends. If you want to watch TV, watch TV. It is vacation/holiday time to you too. Don't worry too much. 

This time was extra hard for her because of several reasons:

1. still a bit sick

2. worries of projects at work

3. might be a bit depression: she did not feel like much working, no specific things she likes doing, other than obligations, duties. also always woke up in dreams about work?! lacked things to buy that will not make her feel guilty. 

4. away from all of us when she does not need to work. this is just ridiculous. 

5. also this trip reminded her of "duty". Because this is sort of a trip to maintaining greencard rule not leaving US for more than 6 months. All the time she is trying to get a residence status. She is sort of sick of it. Well, yes, many people might even be jealous about even have such opportunity to be sick of it. I guess every one has their own problems. When she was in shanghai, she had to apply for shanghai resident card. in US, she had to apply for US resident card. now in Seoul, she needs to apply for Seoul resident card. WTF? Only just now seems a little bit easier. Where will be the residence? Well, one thought helps her is that now where the family is, where is the residence. It's just a task that adults need to take care of. 

6. forgot...

But she came to several things- she gained warmth and engergy

From unstoppable- the most important thing people will remember me will not be my leg but my championship. A man's character is a man's fate

From 100 women who changed the world- there are many. and not many business folks. I also learned about chanel... ugh

From simbi- not everyone figured it out. Live one day at a time  

From xiangtai videos: 菩萨心肠雷霆手段还有幽默。经历磨难才能意识到什么是真的重要。过好每一天。开心是一天。不开心也是一天

From nana son- America is our home. this is the life we were living but not allowed to live any more. don't come back. We are happy now. what challenge you are facing right now, many people can't even dream of. Be grateful... and kind to yourself.

From Nexus: objective reality, subjective reality. intersubjective reality. There is going to be inter computer reality... Maybe one day we will be the horses... What's the difference between consciousness and intelligence. Perhaps we will not win in intelligence and creativity (especially what has patterns, like the Alpha go). It's important about experience (for example, why we want to go to book shop).  Economy is good, weapon is good, tech is good, why still so angry? Because of the image of the reality, not because of the reality.  One day you will learn that you will not live alone. you have to learn how to work with others. 

Ok, so so far, it is about what you want to achieve. Go girl...!